Snippets of the mind by Gagansvaid

8. —FINDING MYSELF What is this emotion? Why is this emotion? Why am I not behaving normal, and what is being normal? Such thoughts come to my mind time and again. I feel incomplete yet I don't want to make efforts to bring things in order. I just wish to breathe free but I cannot—that is what problematises the situations for me further. I like this order of things, i.e., no order at all. All haphazard like, and nothing definite about life in my sight.  I think Meditation can make things easier for me. I think I need not think too much and not go diverse ways, but at this age I cannot be so logical. Or even if I need to be, I don't want to be. I want to explore the reaches of my being, I wish to see diverse regions and search what is the best for me.  I wish to see what I see in the wild pictures, I wish to roam around the places which make me wonder, and I want to be of help to those who are far away or nearer to me. Distance doesn't only interest me, i...